If you’re anything like me, you’ve probably found yourself asking God, more than a few times- what is my purpose in life? I believe that’s one of the most sought-after questions in the world. Every person on this earth wants to feel important and know they are contributing something to this world. After all, what legacy will we leave behind once we’re gone? How will we be remembered?
The first thing we must realize and fully grasp is that we are important. No, really! There are people and things on this earth that will be greatly impacted by each of us. Sure, there may be times when you doubt that and maybe even feel “too small” to make a difference in this huge world. But believe me- YOU MATTER! In fact, in Jeremiah 1:5, God tells us:
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
So, before we were even a thought in our parent’s minds, God knew us and loved us! Before we were ever born, He had set us apart and given each of us a purpose.
Growing up, I was extremely shy. I was this way till my mid-20’s really. I had such huge social anxiety, especially at school. In fact, because I usually kept to myself (all because I was too shy to say much and put myself out there), I was referred to as “stuck up”, which was far from the truth. I wanted to be outgoing and one of those girls who could just go up and start a conversation with anybody. But I struggled. I stayed in my head too much, and the constant “what if this happens” or “what if I sound stupid” thoughts seemed to plague me and held me back from a lot of opportunities.
There were sports I wanted to play, events I wanted to go to, trips I wanted to join in on, but I always just talked myself out of it. I kept telling myself I wasn’t good enough, I was way too awkward to be around all these strangers, I was boring and that no one really cared to be around me. I self-sabotaged myself till I ended up totally isolated. And I found comfort in that.
I’m one you could call an “introvert.” I enjoy having alone time. I do not need to go out all the time, or be around a bunch of people to be happy and content. I do not need to be in a relationship in order to feel validated. I could spend endless hours by myself and be totally fine. In fact, that’s when I learned how to really tune out the rest of the world and hear the voice of God.
So, why exactly am I telling you this? Because growing up, and even in the beginning stages of my faith, I doubted myself. I doubted my abilities. I doubted my future. I doubted my purpose. Yet, as I grew closer to God, I began to learn that I wasn’t a failure, I was deeply loved, I was absolutely worthy, and I had a bigger purpose for my life than I could even begin to imagine. AND SO DO YOU!
As Christians, we must realize that we are here because of God, therefore, we are here to glorify Him and make Him known. In fact, in Matthew 28: 19-20, Jesus tells exactly what we are to do:
“Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.”
Honestly, I had read through the Book of Matthew on and off lots of times before. But it wasn’t until I got in the right “mindset” and really allowed the Holy Spirit to work through me and help me fully understand what I was reading, that these two verses actually clicked. But when they did, it seriously changed my entire outlook on life as I knew it.
We know not everyone is called to be a Preacher, an Evangelist, the Pastor of a church. But just because those maybe aren’t our specific callings, does not mean that God isn’t going to use us in a mighty way. Because I promise you- all He’s looking for is an open heart and a willing vessel. But in order to go out and spread the Gospel, you must have FAITH.
Let’s go back to what I was telling you earlier about how afraid I was to speak to people I didn’t know, how I wouldn’t dare do anything to be noticed or bring any unwanted attention my way. In fact, it was so bad that 9 times out of 10 whenever there was going to be any type of speaking in class (whether reading a paper aloud, reading from a book, giving a presentation, etc.), I would totally not even show up to school. I can’t even begin to tell you how many days of school I actually missed due to simple things like this, which were, of course- back then- life scarring, or so I thought.
It wasn’t till many years after I graduated high school that I really found myself having a true interest in knowing more about God. I’ve mentioned some of my struggles of severe depression in previous blogs, and plan on sharing more depth and detail about those horrible times sometime in the future. But it wasn’t till I was at the end of my rope, with absolutely nothing left, ready to throw it all completely away, that I found God.
Sure, I had known of Him my whole life. I even graduated from a private Christian school where we incorporated God in everything we did. We even had a Bible class every morning. But just because I went there and to church some and knew of Him, didn’t mean I actually KNEW Him.
It wasn’t til I was ready (and had tried several times) to end my life, that I found myself reaching out for Him, begging Him to help me. See, that’s the sad thing- a lot of people, even the most self-proclaimed Christians, sometimes don’t seem to reach out to God, till we desperately need Him. That’s not how it should be. Doesn’t it bother you when you never seem to hear from someone till they need something, then once they get it, they disappear again until the next time? Can you even begin to imagine how God feels?
Once I really surrendered my heart and life over to Him, I saw such a drastic change in every area of my life. My attitude, outlook on life, everything was changed… for the better! I started to truly long for a much deeper connection with Him. I was constantly eager to get into His Word. My prayer life changed drastically. And then something else mind-blowing happened- I started to actually love speaking in public. I started to love being around other people.
I never in a million, billion, zillion years thought THAT would happen! I mean, I knew God could completely transform someone, but I guess I didn’t realize just how much until that 360 was done on ME.
The Holy Spirit has taught me so much about the Bible. I have such a greater understanding and insight of His Word. And now I know how to apply those words to my daily life, and it’s changed everything! It’s changed the way I see responsibility, the way I react to negative things and failures, the way I interact with people, the way I work.
As I mentioned before, our purpose on this Earth is to glorify God and let Him be known. But how are we supposed to do that? You let the light of God shine in YOU every single day. You show the love of Jesus to everyone you meet. You face trials and adversities head-on, knowing that you’ve already conquered them through Jesus Christ. You wake up each morning, ready to take on the day with a joyful heart and a positive attitude.
Maybe you’re stuck working all day. If you’re like me, this is usually what my everyday consists of- but I love it. Sure, it can be crazy and hectic, even overwhelming at times, but just remember- there is purpose and strength in the struggle, even the smallest ones that seem insignificant. There is something to be learned in every new day. There is love to be shown to every single person, whether you know them or they’re complete strangers. Live your life in such a way that when they look at you, they only see Jesus. They see Jesus through your actions, your demeanor, your response to stressful situations, your words. Make people want what you have- an unconditional loving, Almighty, Holy, saving, forever faithful God.
Show the world, no matter what you’re doing, where you are, what you’re going through, that YOU live for Jesus. It is not forced in or on you, but completely welcomed and accepted. Pray for others, even your enemies. Wish them well. Pray blessings over them. YES, this is exactly what we as Christians are supposed to do. Love others. Don’t allow hate or bitterness any room in your heart. Talk to God daily, even while you’re out doing things. He loves to hear from you. Keep your family, your friends, your neighbors, everyone covered. Intercede for others. Put your trust completely in Jesus and let Him lead your life.
I never in a million years would have ever thought I would be where I am now, doing what I am now. I had completely different plans for my life. So different in fact that I sometimes look back at how my life has actually played out since turning it over to Christ, and I’m just like- WOW. THANK YOU, JESUS!
Be bold. Pray boldly. Reach out. Listen. READ YOUR BIBLE. Take time to be alone with Him, but also make time to be around like-minded people who seek Jesus as much as you do. Don’t waste a single day by complaining or hating. Jesus never did. Though He was hated by several, mocked, humiliated, betrayed, beaten, He never once lashed out. Yes, Jesus was and is perfect. We are human and we are naturally flawed. We do mess up and fall short of His Glory. But the goal is to be CHRIST-like. Try our absolute best to live our lives according to His Word.
He’s given us very detailed instructions, and a blueprint for life. But it’s up to us individually to pick it up and study it. Remember- there is a specific purpose for YOU, just like there is for me. This time next year, you could be in a completely different place doing something you never even thought of doing. But in order for God to trust you with the BIG things, you must show Him that you can be trusted with the little things.
You are loved. You are worthy. You are meant to be here. You are where you are for a reason. Allow God to show you that very reason. Be a willing vessel. Open your heart completely, and allow Him to transform your life, just like He has mine.